Like the smallest leaf drifting by in the wind, his life slid further and further away from me. I tried to hold onto what I had left of him, but he was gone forever. There was nothing more I could do for him.
I didn’t have my baby Sam for a very long time, but in the little bit of time that I did have him we grew attached to one another. His love and devotion was exactly what I needed in a really rough time in my life. Sometimes I’d have the weight of the world on my shoulders but his adoration added with the love of my children was enough to keep me going on.
Many times I’ve thought of ending my own life, so I can’t understand why the death of my puppy hurt me so much. I guess it’s because I loved him. And that fact alone is enough to make me remember my kids all of those times I contemplated and attempted suicide.
Thinking of my puppy taking his last breath without me made me weak to my knees. I can only imagine the impact that my own death would have on my kids. They love me so much.
So even though life seems to be dealing me a bad hand these last few years, I press on. I’ve lost friends along the way, but I press on. I’ve lost my mind a few times, but I press on. I’ve given all of myself, too much of myself, with nothing in return, but still I press on. I press on for my kids. I press on for the hope of a better future for them. I press on for the next generation of leaders and families. I PRESS ON!
The death of my puppy was not only a hard pill to swallow for me, but it was also an eye opener. Life is too precious, and no matter who we are or what we have done, we mean something to somebody. So, don’t waste another moment worrying about what’s in your way. Keep pressing on!