Kindergarten Ready

I’ve done everything that I know to do to prepare for this moment. I’m still not ready, though!

She’s too young to leave me. Five years old still feels like a newborn. Are there any other mamas out there who understand where I’m coming from? This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

I bought the school supplies and uniforms. I packed her book bag and ironed her clothes. I fixed her hair just right and I gave her a speech about how great she is. I’m still not ready, though.

She’s been talking about this day since headstart. She would watch the big yellow bus pass our house in the mornings and say, “I can’t wait to ride that one.” She’s even excited about doing homework. I’m still not ready, though.

I’m not ready for bullies. I’m not ready for boys. I’m not ready for all of the times she will scrape her knee or fall down without me there. I’m not ready for the times when she will accidentally call her teacher mom because we’ve all done that before. I’m not ready for her to not be my baby anymore.

I know I’m being selfish which is why I keep my sentiments to myself. I’m not completely against the whole kindergarten thing. I’m actually excited to see what kind of person she will grow to become. She’s so sweet and opinionated that I’m sure whatever she does with her life will be extraordinary. My baby the kindergartner! It actually has a nice ring to it.